|*facepalm* Making decisions is hard and I feel like a moron.
||[Oct. 5th, 2011|02:39 pm]
|||||determined and also confused||]|
So three not-getting-me-a-new-job interviews later, I've decided I need to take a different and additional path to getting a new job besides "ask everyone you know if they know of opportunities and network madly" and "apply for every job you come across on Craigslist" and "put your resume all of the places."
Today I sketched out a list of all of the possibilities I could think of for getting on a good career path. And I began to see part of the problem.
Those of you who've been reading my LJ for a very long time (I'm looking at you, celli) might remember how ridiculously much I falter when choosing between equally good or bad options. When I had to choose between my 2 top-choice colleges, I freaked out so much that I actually sent acceptance letters and deposits to both of them. I laugh at myself in retrospect, but all decisions like that feel so IMPORTANT to me.
Right now, my friends, I have eight possibilities of what my next step should be. EIGHT. And all of them involve some level of me not knowing what to do, which is equally terrifying to me (look I have a lot of anxieties). So I... thought I might ask you for opinions and/or help. I want to take a positive next step and not sit here being indecisive some more, but there are eight options here, and I have NO IDEA what to do. Opine? Fill in the gaps to make any of these options less unknown and scary? Laugh at me? (OK, please don't laugh at me, I'm already stressing about what to do here.)
Option 1: Figure out good places to go in China and teach English.
Pros: I can find a job doing that, and I may be able to find better work while there, and it would improve my Chinese language skills which would ALSO improve my chances of getting a job I want. Also, I know how to DO that.
Cons: I would have to leave everything behind that I've built up here, and I don't really want to teach, even if I want to work with China. Also some concerns about vegetarianism.
Option 2: Volunteer at places that can give me good China-related and/or business-analyst-related experience.
Pros: would eat up my free time and make me less bored. Could potentially get me something more valuable, including into a good business school.
Cons: No cash flow. No idea how to convince them to give me work that's interesting, or how to find volunteer work that's related to things I want to do for a living. Also, I'm not moving across the country for an internship, which limits my options further.
Another version of this: could buy an IIBA (International Institute of Business Analysis) membership and volunteer for the local chapter. But I would have to buy a membership *and* be pretty sure that was what I wanted to do *and* it might not do me any good.
Option 3: Figure out good business schools where I could get an MBA with a specialization in China-related things and/or IT.
Pros: I would likely not have problems finding a more responsible job if I had a good MBA.
Cons: A high level of long-term personal and financial commitment (the process is hard and complicated) with a high possibility of failure. I am afraid, with some information to back me up, that I couldn't get into a good business school with current credentials: would need to volunteer or get a better job first, it seems like. Also, don't know that getting a good MBA would make me more likely to get the kind of job I really WANT to do, which is fixing things, and I'm afraid of committing that much time and money to something IDK if I even want to do.
Option 4: Figure out alternative grad schools/certifications that would definitively allow me to pursue goals of fixing things that I'm really good at: maybe becoming an editor?
Pros: I would be good at being an editor, and maybe other things, and I really want to do something I CARE about.
Cons: AAAAAAGH I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO THIS AT ALL. I don't know how to figure out what grad school would be best for me. If I did, I wouldn't be in this boat, I think.
Option 5: Go to temp agencies, temp, and make a positive impression on the people temping with.
Pros: Cash flow, possibility to make a positive impression.
Cons: Eats up a lot of free time doing the kind of work I vowed I'd get away from. Won't necessarily get me anywhere.
Option 6: Go to lots of local orgs where you want to work and ask for informational interviews.
Pros: Once I figure out what orgs to do this for, would get in-person interactions with people I want to work for.
Cons: Might not get me anywhere. Also, need to figure out what orgs to do this for.
Option 7: Figure out where job fairs are all over the country and go to those with my resume.
Pros: Face-to-face interaction with potential employers, which I generally excel at, and also, travel to see awesome people who are awesome!
Cons: Don't know how to do it, costs a lot of money, and not guaranteed to get me anywhere.
Option 8: Find a career counselor and figure out how to do the things I don't know how to do in 1-7.
Pros: Would get me an idea of how to do the missing things in 1-7.
Cons: I don't know how to find someone to help me with this, and it's expensive!